Dont Judge.

Im feeling lost again. *For goodness sake, when will this feeling fade away, Daddy?*

Mum's health hasnt been very good, dad's too - muscle pull. They have been going to the doc regulary, but it doesnt seems to have much improvement. What have the useless doctors been doing?! My turn too, back ach, since LaSalle days till now. Its like a on-off, on-off ach, esp when im lacking of sleep. Left shoulder.

Oh ya, previously closed down the blog, due to some reasons, but then i decided to re-start again, this time, i will be more discreet in what i write. Since whatever ive write here is free for people to read, then you shall know very little of me. Unless you pay.

Talking about pay & money, Ive cut down on my shows - to two times a week. I cant afford to waste my health. 金钱不可能从未赢得足够. Was having this conversation with a sales rep few weeks ago, while he was driving me home. We were talking about work, when he told me "wo men zhe me yang de zuo gong fang shi, shi zai mai ming, bu shi zuo gong." We work as if we were selling our lives away.

I agree.

Just look at the sales rep - gotta drink mugs and jugs of beer, liquor (whatever the company's selling), to entertain client/customer/pub & club owner/kopitiam owner/events etc, after a day of work, almost everyday. Be our 'bodyguard' when we are out on roving, be our chauffeur to send us home. Sometimes, even our hero (scapegoat), helping us to the evil mugs when customers/clients insist us on drinking. The way i see them drink, wah, peifu them. They drink beer/liquor like plain water, like that, like very delicious.

Actually we, 'the girls' - the models too. Mai ming. Dont see us always wear pretty pretty, sexy sexy, entertain clients/customers, serving, promoting, stand there look pretty, take pictures with cars etc. Like vase job, but its not easy too, though it looks easy. Depending on what kind of promo, event. Esp the shooter girls, they drink like theres no tommorrow. Most of the time we try not to drink, esp when theres no commission. Anyway, we were told that we are not allow to drink during working hours.

Look, for example, imagine you are working for shooters, if one shoot $2 comm, you will have to selling at least 50 shoots for that day, to make it one hundred. (Im not talking about the basic yet.) Within the 50 shots, customers will sure get u a shot to drink with them too, so lets say for a night, u might have to drink 20 shots? 20 shots. If u r workin 3 days a week, monthly, can u imagine how intoxicating it is for your liver? And i know some siao eh will just deliberately buy a or two dozen for you to drink. And if you met 2 tables of siao eh like that, ho seh, u die for the night (Yeah, i met, but i never die). Plus all the late nights, smoke in the clubs, and if you have a day job, or if u r a student...on top of that, we have to deal with targets, crude jokes, difficult people, sleazy rude customers, which show no respect for us woman, how tough is that? But i have to admit that the money is good. Which, that explains why so many girls are willing to work this line, and even, hard to get out off. The money is simpy too good to turn down, for a day.

Im tired of hearing this. I know, of peeps, even my own friends, judge US, as without education, our job scoop, enviroment as sleazy, sex-orientated. Im telling you its not. U know what, you are the one thats without education. Time to widen your perspective, children! Call us whatever you like. In simpler terms, we are just higher paying waitress (of cuz nt as high as stewardess, n we dont get privilleges like them), higher paying promoters, higher paying flyer-givers, higher paying vases, higher paying dancers, higher paying servers. And NEVER SOCIAL ESCORT. Its a far cry away. Most of us, we are degree or dip holder, students from NTU, NUS, SIM, SMU, working to pay their school fees or just simply for extra cash. You will be surprise, there are stewardess, teachers, lawyers, miss spore, bankers too. And i know them personally.

Dont ever look down on us, cuz we have as much education as u do (even higher for some), and we can/are getting payment higher then u do. So, shut up.

You wouldnt know how it is like, unless u try it for yourself. Dont judge.

Miss June says, DONT JUDGE.